The one thing about this shutdown that surprises me is mom not asking about why we don’t go to church? not once has she brought it up.

Honestly it’s a relief on my part. It’s no secret I do not enjoy organized religion. I continued going for her sake. To keep tradition and a sense of routine in her life.

Apart from my very personal histories and multiple generations of messed up patriarchal superiority. I don’t believe churchgoing is synonymous with personal spirituality. A persons behaviors and attitude show me so much more then the attendance of church.

Church goers tend to label others as active or inactive, liberal or conservative. Self justification that church is the ONLY way to channel mans divine nature.

There are some people who get so involved in church, that they become insensitive to humanity around them, contradicting the truths they say they believe in so deeply.

Formal organizations made up of policies, programs and traditions personally do not give me sense of security or worth and focusing on image and appearance is a recipe for anxiety and depression.

My mental health is precious to me. I know my limits, it may have taken me over 4 decades to put it into words, but I’m much better off spiritually now then I have ever been in my life.

We will not be going back when church opens up again. Mom has her bible, tabernacle choir CDs, her General conference on YouTube. Church is too confusing, loud, and sitting for over an hour is too much for her. Not to mention the germ-fest in a packed room of singing, coughing and crying babies. She hasn’t missed it, and neither have I. Sorry not sorry.

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