Depression?
Mom doesn’t want to do anything, church, walks at night, the park to watch the boys disk golf, she’s content to sit for hours in her chair watching reruns. Lately she won’t even open her curtains unless I do it for her. I invite her to come with us and when she declines, with “runny nose, too noisy, knees hurt, or it’s too hot outside”, we leave for a few hours to try to enjoy our summer and she thinks we have abandoned her. She walks over to JoAnns and says “they have left me again! And nobody tells her where we went!” (I do)
We used to go on long bike rides every day 3 summers ago, but since mom cannot come, guilt has stopped me from doing those things, I get Facebook memories and realize how much our life has changed in the last 2 years. So I’m determined to enjoy the rest of summer! we are using up our gift passes with or without mom. Sorry, not sorry 😐
We are planning an RV trip to the west coast in August, reservations are being made, moms coming whether she likes it or not. Andrea has been gracious to take her in for a few of those days while we visit Hannah and Dillon.
I’m still the bad guy for taping up her heater switch so she cannot turn it on in the hottest part of summer, for “hiding” her possessions when she misplaced something, buying her briefs and helping her clean after incontinent issues, for feeding her a cold sandwich for dinner (She’s becoming so picky with food). I cannot win.
We were eating pizza at JoAnns last night, and when she was done she said, “I’m going back to that place I sleep.” I said “you mean home?” She shrugged. I know she feels lost and like she doesn’t belong. Words are hard for her to formulate. She cannot join or follow conversations. But that sentence tells more about how she feels about her situation then she can convey otherwise. 😞
Adventures in Mitchell 